You've Changed

   Lately I realised that my interests were changing. Things that I used to be fond of now seem immature and boring. I've been thinking about what I wanna do with my life (I have a lot of time on my hands ever since I was grounded for life but that's another story) and fashion caught my attention. Then I decided I wanna be a designer/ stylist.  I mean it wasn't like I woke up one day and was like maybe I wanna do this for the rest of my life before it was like a on and off thing that I was interested in but never took seriously. But honestly I'm surrounded by people beating the odds and succeeding in doing what they love. It sounds corny but its true so I asked myself whats that one dream that I have that I keep putting of or doubting and I came up with fashion.

     Since decidng on this one area of my life that I want to change I noticed that my outlook  on everything has changed. Besides from the normal things every aspiring designer has to do like sketching and sewing I decided on defining my personal style. Before I considered myself pretty eclectic you know I have a strong love for mixing pattern's ,textures and colors. Still having a love for all of those things I find myself now loving all thing ethnic, cultural and traditional. Coming from a Caribbean family I consider myself an island girl loving all things easy/light weight an bohemian. Growing up in Brooklyn hit me with a dose of urban admiring textures that are ruff and falling in love with denim. Questioning my spirituality and having a yearning for such draws me to cultural pieces from Africa, India, Asia, etc. The more I know myself the less I find myself walking in certain stores, watching certain thing eating from the places I used. I had this same discussion with my best friend last night. It may sound cliche or cocky but  I don't mean it in that sense at all but what we feed our brain is what we become. You'll hear things like you changed and or sorts of negative energy crap from people trying to hold you down but if your the same person you were in six grade that mot necessarily a good thing. As human I believe life is a constant teacher to truly be happy to live and not just survive you need to constantly grow and learn spirituality(not the same thing as religion). So refrain from things mainstream or fall victim to the endless cycle . Dig a little deeper into your soul. Maybe everything you know is a lie. That last line was probably a little cheesy. This was just something to ponder on.

   _Umi