Over Thunk

I want to do the things we used to do. I want to do new things. Things that I may love, with the one I love. Lets go skiing. Lets bungee jump. Lets swim with dolphins. Lets sky dive. Lets lay in bed all day. Lets cuddle. Lets smoke a blunt or two or three. Lets go shopping. Lets dance on the train. Lets take a bubble bath. Lets drink fancy wine. Let me play in your hair while i sing to you. Let me make you laugh. Let me cook for you. Let me frustrate you. Let me hate you. Let me love you.

The Muse : Wati Heru

This generation never ceases to surprise me. With artists like Based God, Drake and Future on the scene I thought we reached the end of the era of good rap music, and then my cousin released this video. Yes my cousin. I cant remember the last time I felt the need to brag or promote my family and their accomplishments. Wati Heru is the latest rapper on the scene that has yet to be discovered. With a lyrical word play like no other and a sound that's reminiscent of Mos Def and Talib Kweli his words resonates in your soul. 

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Grounded

   I feel like i'm grounded.  I'm trying to find the balance between being realistic but not selling myself short. I know how determined and capable I am of success. But am I prepared and ready for it? Right now I feel as though I 've been exploring in Art. Dabbling here and there. Now I'm trying to create my style and bring that to my line. Not fall into a endless cycle of trends. Create something timeless but staying true to me. I'm surrounded By inspiration. So I started caring my journal around so when I get ideas I stick to it. My friend Steven said I like your drawings but I wanna see you.That got me thinking about  personalizing things more. Getting into patterns and architecture. Taking my time on my designs. Quantity over Quality. Steven is my new art teacher. Were going to explore painting and color theory's and other tings. In exchange I'll offer him my artistic eye ideas on concepts for projects etc. Lmao. Guess we both benefit from this relationship.. But yeah I'm working on personalizing my designs/Art.

Cha-Cha-Cha-Cha-Changes

  After recently moving out of my mothers house, I wondered where my life would be headed. For some reason everyone else around me was congratulatory but worried. Where would I go? What would I do? To my surprise, I was shockingly cavalier, as they say. One of my best friends asked me a few hours after why I was so calm about the whole situation. Well, for one its an understatement to say that I was overjoyed. As soon as I walked out I felt like the chains that bonded me to that house had finally been released. As for finding a place to live I had faith that everything would work out for the better. And it did. I survived the summer, although having to move a miles away from my best friends.

And then some more bad news......

 Unfortunately the move wasn't the only major change in my life. Changing locations meant changing schools. Now this was exceptionally hard for me to cope with because I'm somewhat what they call a "social outcast" or "wall flower". I know its hard to believe, but unless I feel really comfortable with someone, I'm just gonna be the awkward black girl in the corner. But to my surprise my new school is filled with welcoming people and my new guidance counselor  insists on helping me 24/7. It is rough changing schools and leaving friends behind, especially in the 12 grade, but I'm a survivor. Lol Destineys child.

What hurt me the most was that i had to start fresh, I wasn't really worried about leaving my friends, yeah I miss them but I'm not going to lose any of them, hopefully. One of my friends actually told me that she wasn't worried either, because she knew that our friendship was one of those that wouldn't fade, or some shit like that. But it was really sweet and what I needed to hear.

So far its been an adventure.Imma Keep on keepin' on.

The Many Faces In My Head

Interpret Lilakoi Moon

My Latest Expiditions. Not Bad For A Person Who Hasn't Had Professional Lessons.

-Umi

Don't dry those tears

After watching this highly emotional video entitled Rembihnutur by Arni and Kiksi all I could think about doing was crying. Not only because it was a compilation of crying people, but because it helped me to realize some unknown feelings that I had inside. At first i was totally skeptical about it. I didn't really know what to think or how to feel about what I was really looking at. But after getting some thoughtful insight from a friend my eyes opened and I saw beyond what was flashing on the screen. She told me that the reason why these people are crying may not be because they are hurt in the moment, but because they have deeper emotions that they decided meditate on. Crying sometimes is the only way that people really lift the burdens of the world off of their shoulders. You don't even have to be sad to cry. You could be crying about the happiest moment of your life and you were just so full of motions that you want to relive them some how.

Crying can have a really bad connotation and associated with sadness or heartbreak or other things. But what ever the reason that your crying, that guy or gal that broke your heart, may seem unworthy of your tears but its guaranteed that you'll always feel better than you did before. You may not necessarily  be crying over that person but you maybe crying for your own well being so you get peace of mind. After a nice long stream of tears that seem to wash away all your worries, when you dry those eyes, the world will seem different. So don't be ashamed to cry because you think its a sign of weakness. It only shows that you are human and have real human emotions that you can't hold in or won't hold in. Cry to yourself, cry at home, cry in the shower. Call up a friend and cry together. Cry till you have no moisture left in your body. As long as you take a moment, reflect on your feelings and let it all out, your day will start lookin up. Ugly cries are acceptable as well.

                    Feel free to watch this video anytime and cry as much as needed.

                       

                  If you would like to listen to the other Icelandic bands songs click here.

                      

  _maisha

You've Changed

   Lately I realised that my interests were changing. Things that I used to be fond of now seem immature and boring. I've been thinking about what I wanna do with my life (I have a lot of time on my hands ever since I was grounded for life but that's another story) and fashion caught my attention. Then I decided I wanna be a designer/ stylist.  I mean it wasn't like I woke up one day and was like maybe I wanna do this for the rest of my life before it was like a on and off thing that I was interested in but never took seriously. But honestly I'm surrounded by people beating the odds and succeeding in doing what they love. It sounds corny but its true so I asked myself whats that one dream that I have that I keep putting of or doubting and I came up with fashion.

     Since decidng on this one area of my life that I want to change I noticed that my outlook  on everything has changed. Besides from the normal things every aspiring designer has to do like sketching and sewing I decided on defining my personal style. Before I considered myself pretty eclectic you know I have a strong love for mixing pattern's ,textures and colors. Still having a love for all of those things I find myself now loving all thing ethnic, cultural and traditional. Coming from a Caribbean family I consider myself an island girl loving all things easy/light weight an bohemian. Growing up in Brooklyn hit me with a dose of urban admiring textures that are ruff and falling in love with denim. Questioning my spirituality and having a yearning for such draws me to cultural pieces from Africa, India, Asia, etc. The more I know myself the less I find myself walking in certain stores, watching certain thing eating from the places I used. I had this same discussion with my best friend last night. It may sound cliche or cocky but  I don't mean it in that sense at all but what we feed our brain is what we become. You'll hear things like you changed and or sorts of negative energy crap from people trying to hold you down but if your the same person you were in six grade that mot necessarily a good thing. As human I believe life is a constant teacher to truly be happy to live and not just survive you need to constantly grow and learn spirituality(not the same thing as religion). So refrain from things mainstream or fall victim to the endless cycle . Dig a little deeper into your soul. Maybe everything you know is a lie. That last line was probably a little cheesy. This was just something to ponder on.

   _Umi